Everything Twilight.

Edward Cullen's birthday is June 20, he will be 110.  Bella and Edward are getting married on August 13, 2011. Breaking Dawn comes out in 156 days.   These are the kinds of things running thru my head.

I know to many of you, it seems as tho my Twilight obsession never faded, or was put on the back burner, but it was. I mean, its always there, but it lays dormant most of the time.  But now, right now? Its overwhelming again. It consumes my every thought. I read or hear something, and usually I have some sort of Twilight reference running through my head.  I have to stop myself from saying it out loud.

The release of the Breaking Dawn Part 1 movie trailer, is what opened the flood gates.  Now they're open, they can't be closed. There were cracks in the seams anyways. I had been seeing stills from the movie and seeing this version of Edward.  But the movie trailer? Oh man.

It was leaked the day of the 2011 MTV Movie awards, as it was set to premiere during the show.  I had been amped up all that day waiting for the trailer and when it was leaked? Holy lifton.  Friends had posted it on my FB wall, but I was at work and couldn't watch it. I tried, but every time I clicked to watch it, it had been removed due to copyright infringement.  It had been tweeted to me, emailed, texted, and no matter what I kept missing it. I had resolved to watch it during the MTV movie awards, but was so heartbroken that so many had seen it and were talking about it.    On my way home from work, I was at a red light and refreshed my Facebook feed, and there it was, just posted that second. The light turned green. I could barely breathe! I clicked to load it and began searching for a place to pull over as it was starting. I sat on the side of the road with my blackberry gripped tightly in my hand watching a lady in high heels walk.  Before I knew it, I was gasping and then crying. A happy and excited cry that it was finally here. I was overcome with emotion, and I don't know why, and I cried.   Then I watched it again. It was hard to see on my little blackberry screen. I then drove faster to home. I texted Andrew and asked him to log into my laptop and open facebook.  I ran into the house, and God love him, he had the trailer loaded and in full screen. He knew what I needed!! I watched it again and again and again and again. At this time, I have no idea how many times I have watched it.

That was it, I was over the edge into Twifandom, again, for the millionth time.  If you haven't seen the trailer yet, here it is....

I found this facebook group many months ago called "So what, I am an older woman obsessed with Edward Cullen! Get over it."  I met the lady who created it, Debbie.  We became facebook friends as she liked all the pics of Edward/Robert I posted.  I have other friends who love Twilight, but no one who loves Edward like I do. I know others exist, I just didn't know them. Debbie was the first.  We became really great friends. She lets me help admin that group.  Recently, we have taken that group and turned it into a page that can be "liked".  We are meeting admins from other Twilight groups and last night, I hosted Twilight Trivia in another Twilight group called TwiMoms.  It was so fun to mingle and play with other fans.

Everyone makes fun of me for being a Twihard, but these groups make me feel better about my obsession.  Twilight is now my hobby. I read the books over and over. I watch the movies, over and over again. I talk about Twilight. I would love to have a Twilight room. I desperately want to go to Forks, where it all began. Someday, I will.

ps. I watched the movie trailer 3 times after putting it into this blog. I *may* have a problem.